Hello! So, one of the reasons I started a blog was to work on changing myself “one petal at a time.” And you know, I wasn’t sure how the blog would go. Would anyone read it? Would I get ridiculed or barraged by insults? My brain usually goes to the worst in “what’s the worst that can happen?”
But I gave it a go, and I love it. I don’t feel as isolated anymore. I don’t feel as insignificant. I don’t feel as invisible. My friends and family (and others) read about my life, my struggles and my triumphs — things I only had really shared with a few people in the past. And I’ve gotten messages from folks who say that what I’m doing has inspired them. Me? Inspire? I mean, what an honor it is to do that! I never thought that this blog would have any impact like that. Just amazing.
Sometimes, I have a rough time coming up with a topic. Today, when I sat down to write, I had NO IDEA what to talk about. I’ve been talking a lot about my past lately, just feeling nostalgic. But I wanted to pull away from those types of entries for the moment. I do like to write about stuff that happened in between blog posts, but yesterday all that really happened was that some moron somewhere cut the internet line in the area. The internet was fine at my house, but it was chaos at work. When I logged in to my computer remotely, it took my email two hours to load all the messages (normally it takes a few minutes). It was a rough start to my Monday, but it got fixed not too long after that.
To pull myself out of the insanity of isolation, I also started exercising. Not only am I really enjoying it, but now I go to the local park, which gets me out of the house. The park is peaceful, and I know I’m safe from COVID-19 because there is no one else there. A combination of the exercise and dieting has now put me below 200 pounds. I’ve lost 32 pounds! Eight pounds to go to hit my first goal.
Another way I’ve made myself feel less isolated is talking with strangers from around the world online, hoping to make friends. I’ve mostly done this via Twitch, and it’s been a lot of fun. Before, I basically only had conversations with maybe five people while in isolation. Now, there is nothing wrong with those five people, and I really appreciate having at least those folks to talk to! But, now I’ve got dozens of people I chat with. And it’s so wonderful.
So, I’m doing much better than I was six weeks or so ago when I started this blog. I don’t have as many headaches, I haven’t been as moody, I don’t get as angry, I am laughing more and just feeling like a human being again in general. So, thank you all for reading. I hope you continue to do so, and I hope that when I write a terrible one — I know I probably have — you forgive me and still read the next one. It’s been such a joy and an honor!
Until next time!
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